♥ HEARTWHISPERS... ♥

You know that feeling when you stop yourself from speaking 

or you say yes when you want to say no

 or you rush yourself trying to dance to the beat of someone else's drum. 

You know that feeling you get in your chest,

 and just below it and then deep in your belly too.

 It's like you have a stomach ache 

but the pain comes from beyond your body.

 It is coming from that other part of you.

 And it's hurting.

 It's grieving and you know with all silent sadness 

that you've done it again, 

you've disrespected yourself. 

You've put a muzzle on your soul.

 And you're hurting for it, 

you feel bruised and tender.

 And you wanna make it all okay with yourself again 

but it was you who did it so you feel stuck

 because ultimately it's just about loving yourself...

like you did all those years ago

 before you got it into your head 

there was something wrong with you. 

Yeah, it's all that I'm getting rid of. 

That's the change.

 I don't want to do that to myself anymore. 

I'm done with dishonoring my soul. 

I'm done with making myself feel those things. 

--S.C Lourie